My sweet, sweet girl. You will never know how much it has meant to me, for the past three years, to call you all mine. Every moment of you being my only has been cherished, and each memory is buried in my soul to feed my joy and delight. Soon, you will no longer be my only, but you will forever be my first.
In five short months we will have another little soul enter this world and our home. Whether this soul is your brother or your sister, it is already a soul that is loved so dearly. This soul will require much of our attention, just as you did when you cheerfully came to us. This soul will need to be held and rocked. This soul will need to be nourished in many ways. Although I will delight in providing this new soul all that it needs to thrive, just as I did you, I will lament over the time I had before spent pouring into you.
As I hold and rock your new brother or sister, I need you to know several things. I need you to know that the love that I am now pouring into this new soul does not remove a single drop of the incredible love that I have for you. I need you to know that I love this new soul the same, and that mommy’s love is immense. It fits you, it fits daddy, it fits this new soul, and it will fit anyone who may join our beautiful family in the future. No matter how many people mommy’s love spreads over, it will never, ever change. My love for you will forever be unconditional. It will be unshakable. It will forever be unwavering. There is no one that can ever come, and nothing you can ever do, that will change this truth.
I need you to know that I still cherish our time together just like I did when you were our only one. Our time may have more interruptions than we are both used to. You may have to share your time more than you would like. Our moments alone together may not last as long as they had before. My hope is that these things do not signal to you that our time together is less valuable than it once was. My sweet, precious girl, every moment I spend with you is a treasure, now until the end of time. I promise that I will prioritize alone time with you. I promise I will listen when you tell me you miss you. I promise to put away outside distractions when we have the opportunity to be just us. Time with you will always and forever be one of my most cherished possessions.
I need you to know how much you have taught me. Sweet baby, when you entered our lives, I thought I knew all about myself. I was under the impression that I had ironed out most of the kinks and that I was ready to be a great mother. Your presence quickly showed me that, although I was overjoyed to be your mommy, I had so much to learn before I could become great. Precious girl, in the nights when you woke me from sleep so that I could feed you, I learned just how much patience I was lacking. On the days when I yearned to go to work, or to do something for me, I learned that I was more selfish than I knew. However, in those same moments, you taught me that you, and any of my future children, were absolutely worth all the patience in the world. You taught me that I could be great, and that you deserved for me to be great. You taught me that the greatest work that I will ever do, the best hours that I will spend in this life, are the hours that are spent pouring into my children. You taught me that the delight of motherhood would outweigh any doubts that I had of myself. The delight of bringing up a world changer is greater than any ounce of satisfaction I would find in another area of work. Thank you for the lessons.
I need you to know how crucial your incredible personality is to the strength of our family. Sweet girl, your joy is infectious. Your humor brings cheer when life is busy bringing countless worries. Your consideration for others fills your daddy and me with hope; you are proof in one body that the world is not all bad. You, my love, are a natural born leader, and we need that in our family. We need all the parts of you that make you you. We need you to be joyful and funny and considerate and a leader. We also need your imperfections, because these are the things that make us whole as family. So, my sweet girl, as we enter a world of exploration with this new soul coming into our home, I pray that you are never overlooked. I pray that you never feel insignificant or inferior. I pray that you never feel that you are not enough. You are, and always will be, more than enough.
My dear firstborn, you will always hold the special spot of being first. Although you will no longer be our only, you will forever be the one that made me mommy. That is a place that no one else will ever be able to claim. As we grow from three to four, I rejoice in the opportunity to pour out more of me. I am excited to witness you develop into the best big sister. Our family will forever grow greater because of what you and your new brother or sister bring to it.